Old Pain🔹New Demons

I’ve recently had a life changing...no altering experience with this individual, it closed out a very important chapter for me with eyes wide open. I have created this website with the knowledge and wisdom that I have gained from my entire experience and everything I’ve learned through the pain and coming out the other side. My hope is to help men and women own their truth, get rid of the shame and doubt in their life caused by the effects of being in this kind of relationship, and to give a voice and a raw and vulnerable inside look into my truth that is so many others…to give the ones that need hope and inspiration, validation, and guidance. This is my first time doing this and it’s scary and I’m nervous. But It's extremely important to me, and I genuinely want to help people heal and for them to know that there is a beautiful life outside of this and you can get through it and passed it. I hope you will come along with me on this journey of self discovery and most importantly spreading the word and getting this much needed, very valuable information to the people that think that they don't have a voice and aren't heard. I HEAR YOU   *** Love & Light ***

Love & Light

🦉Shnuk⚔️

That I could advance on my own circumstances...

🦉Awareness🦉

An inspirational and profound speech on AWARENESS and WAKING UP from philosopher •Allan Watts•

🥀Letting Go🥀

⚔️Don't Be Afraid⚔️

Alan Wilson Watts (6 January 1915 - 16 November 1973) was a British philosopher who interpreted and popularised Eastern philosophy for a Western audience. Born in Chislehurst, England, he moved to the United States in 1938 and began Zen training in New York.

Our ego is our protector and attaches to trauma in the form of pain. Shadow work is a form of journaling that addresses this trauma and allows us to protect ourselves with love and understanding. As we do this our trauma will be associated with love. And in doing so love becomes our protector and the ego takes the back seat. As love protects us our intuition will grow, intuition cannot grow in an egodominant person. Doing this will activate all other claire abilities.

As a woman, you walk into all kinds of unknown situations that cause you to fall in love, put someone else’s needs before your own, and make unbelievable sacrifices. As time goes by, falling in love has its consequences. You fall in love with your mate, children, family, and job. However, you do not receive a fraction of what you have given in return. Sadly, nobody sees you are beyond exhausted. They want you to go, go and go without complaining. If they carefully pay attention and think about it; when was the last time they saw you smile, truly smile? When was the last time they saw you happy, truly happy? When was the last time they offered to help you, as opposed to asking could you do this or that? When was the last time they gave you a moment to breathe? As you work so hard and give so much of yourself, you think things will finally line up. However, that is not the case. Once you set someone up to help them prosper, things in your life start to crumble, and slowly but surely you begin to feel violated. Your hard work is soon forgotten as they drop you where you stand. Life isn’t fair and it is hard. It’s even harder when you love so hard and lose so much. You are not perfect. You have your flaws, and most definitely you have your moments. However, you have a good heart and you try to treat others how you want to be treated. Time and time again you give people all of your heart by trying to be loving and understanding. You’ve learned that when it comes to some people, nothing would ever be good enough. You have to be willing to accept that you loved them to the best of your ability, and only lost someone who caused you to lose more of yourself. Those people aren’t worth saving because the question is, who will save you? However, the love you gave wasn’t in vain; it helped you to become a better person. The loss opened your eyes to see that you deserve so much better. It is alright to cry. You are finding your strength and you are beginning to find the voice within. You are special. You are unique. You are loved. There’s no need to be afraid. Life is a journey! You will make it. It’s okay to let go of the loss and count it all pure joy!

We are never done.....it's a continual journey of the Soul. At times we stand on the mountain top, then find ourselves tumbling back into the valley....then the upward trek begins again and another layer of the onion has been peeled away. 

It is necessary in order to ever truly move forward. I am free of my pains of my past from putting in the shadow work and fully looking myself inside and out. That which I love, I kept. That which I do not, I am working on to change. Key thing is to accept yourself fully as you are in each and every moment. We have value and purpose here beyond what we humans have allowed ourselves to become. Look yourselves fully in the mirror and accept yourselves as you are right this moment. Change what you don’t like, or learn to live with it. Nurture the things you like about yourself. Build yourself up! You have to put the kind of effort and energy into yourself that you want to receive from others. No one can come to you with anything else but that, what you put out there into the universe, is what you receive. Just understand, life is always going to be life and abide by Murphy’s law. But the quality of your life greatly improves when you do the work on yourself.